Wednesday, May 28, 2008

If you always do what you've always done

You'll always get what you've always got

I'm disappointed and frustrated.  This is totally  self inflicted.  I am to blame.  

After 40 minutes of  reflection on the drive home from the depot without my bag (please do not ask I may cry).  I have decided that I will no longer be buying anything from overseas.  In fact anything that needs a courier to deliver it does not need to be mine.   If I cannot buy it simply from the UK I will not be buying it at all.  This is no hardship I do not need anything.  

Buying things will not make me a different person.  

My lifestyle will not be miraculously changed by owning a new bag/yarn/book.  

I said last night at the Nutty Knitters that I am easily influenced cos I always want to be everybody else.  I always want to live in someone elses house, drive their car, have their hairstyle etc, etc.

This weeks frustration and feeling of powerlessness is made all the worse because it is tinged with guilt.  I really didn't need to buy this bag and I'm humbled by the greed that overtook my purchase.

The need for reflection continues.

6 comments:

AnneOlly said...

Sam, don't beat yourself up, you're absolutely lovely and I know we tease you regarding your purchases but you know we're all the same too, we laugh because we would absolutely do the same. This does not make us bad people we just have a love/obsession which sometimes overtakes our lives. At least we have interests!

You are amongst friends, and your bag whenever you get it will be lovely and very very useful.

Kelly H. said...

Oh Sam, I am so sorry that you are having a rough day. The frustration about the bag is completely understandable, and I know I would feel the same. Similarly, I can relate to a lot of what you are saying about the idea that the grass is always greener on the other side of the street...it does so often feel that way, doesn't it?

((Hugs)). Thinking of you!

Aussie Stitcher said...

I hope you get to the bottom of the bag problem.

Mrs J said...

Oh Sam! I was sure you would have your bag by now! It is TOTALLY NOT your fault! You could have ordered it from Leeds & it would have been in the hands of the carriers!!!!!Hopefully it will arrive soon, even if its been back to Seattle (only 4 days!) With UPS can you see a copy of the signature online (like Parcelfarce!)? Hugs!

jamsandwich said...

Sending you a big hug

Nicola said...

oh lovey!
It's not wrong to want a little treat here and there. The fact that the couriers have been rubbish isn't a reason for you to have a go at yourself... Like someone said above, this could have happened if it had come from Leeds.

Love
Nicola