I'm disappointed and frustrated. This is totally self inflicted. I am to blame.
After 40 minutes of reflection on the drive home from the depot without my bag (please do not ask I may cry). I have decided that I will no longer be buying anything from overseas. In fact anything that needs a courier to deliver it does not need to be mine. If I cannot buy it simply from the UK I will not be buying it at all. This is no hardship I do not need anything.
Buying things will not make me a different person.
My lifestyle will not be miraculously changed by owning a new bag/yarn/book.
I said last night at the Nutty Knitters that I am easily influenced cos I always want to be everybody else. I always want to live in someone elses house, drive their car, have their hairstyle etc, etc.
This weeks frustration and feeling of powerlessness is made all the worse because it is tinged with guilt. I really didn't need to buy this bag and I'm humbled by the greed that overtook my purchase.
The need for reflection continues.