Sometimes.......................

Sometimes I care too much

Sometimes I don’t care enough

Sometimes I love too much

Sometimes I can’t find love anywhere

Sometimes a hug is all it takes

Sometimes a hug is empty and cold

Sometimes are the times between the moments when everything is good

mmmmmmmmalabrigo

As a child I loved getting new shoes. Twice a year we would travel to the city (Bradford) to get new shoes - brown lace ups for winter and pretty strappy sandals for the summer.

I would get home and open the box - peering inside and smelling the new leather I would imagine the adventures and journeys we would have together. The promise of shiny newness. I would carry them around the house and pop them down next to me. At bedtime I would place them on the floor where I could go to sleep looking at them.

Nothing much has changed - this morning the postie bought me a parcel:

I opened it slowly, savoring the moment:


I stared at its beauty and imagined what adventures we will have together - what tales will be knit into the shawl it is to become. I just realised I've been sat with my coffee and knitting and the box is on my lap where I can look at the beautiful yarn every now and then.

Pure Obsession

I am by nature an obsessive person. When I get interested in something I can't just pass by I tend to immerse myself in it:

As a teenager it was obsessive love affairs.
In my early twenties it was my career.
In my late twenties it was being mother.
Then it was career again.
Now it's antenatal education.

Yet throughout there is a constant. For 30 years I've had my knitting to ground me, to bring me out of obsession...........................

However, for the past year or so this has been an equal obsession. My knitting has been with me at all times. I've thought about it most of the time. I've met some wonderful new friends and improved my knitting skills wonderfully.

For the past month I've been cooling off, I didn't pick my knitting up for a whole week, I stopped dreaming about it and wasn't drooling over new yarns.

Then suddenly it's back. Inspired by Kim at Pure Purl I've started to dream of yarn again. Malagrigo Lace for the Goddess Knits Annviersary Shaw - a mystery shawl that will look stunning I'm sure.

I was so smitten by the yarns that I broke my yarn diet - I've heard a rumour that Kim sends beautiful parcels - I'm so exicited it's over six months since I bought yarn for myself!!!!!

Living Life

So where has two months gone?

Walking the dog - I have done more walking in the past couple of months than in my whole life. We've been discovering some wonderful things as well. Look at his bluebell wood - it was 5 minutes further along a walk we did regularly. The dog was running ahead and this is what we saw....................






Studying - I am more than slightly distracted as I have an exam at the weekend. Well technically I have to answer 30 questions on the childbearing year (that's pre conception, conception, assisted conception, pregnancy, labour, birth, the postnatal period and medical abbreviations). Not only do I have to leave the Dale but I have to travel down south..............


Course Planning - I have a course starting at the end of June. So I've been pulling together all the things I've learnt over the past couple of years and making some kind of sense of it.

Knitting - there's been a Woodland Shawl, baby sweaters, socks, boobs and a uterus. I have managed to see the Nutty Knitters regularly - thank goodness.

Then there's the day job - it's still going well. I'm beginning to get into the rhythm now and get a handle on what is going on. I'm learning so much as well about conservation, biodiversity, heritage and all sorts of farmy countryside stuff.

Babies - the baby count for my friends is now up to 14 - and yes Verity is having twins!!!!!!

Sometimes I'm so busy living life there is not enough time to write about it...............